| I hate the world today |
[Nov. 18th, 2009|11:12 pm] |
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I am pissed off. Not good if I am about to go to bed. Want to break something. MUST CALM THE FUCK DOWN!! |
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| post trip report..........sorta |
[Nov. 10th, 2009|05:24 pm] |
Ok I know,
I have been back for over two weeks from Europe and I have not even had the chance to write about up cus I got caught up In Vanc life imediately ( or however that is spelled)
I will give you just a short summary of high-lights.
Indonesian food that I did not have to cook myself ( YUMMIE!!)
Seeing family and friends from my Zwolle time and reconnecting.
Amazingly easy get together with my brother and sisters and their spouses and soem of their kids.
Hanging at the house boat with the dogs. Hooking up with two of my best friends from Amsterdam period.Seeing back other friends as well.
Hooking up with two friends from college that I have not seen in over 17 years. Somethings never really change that much.
Walking lots with R who came for Amsterdam and Paris experience. Almost all vaca pics are of her consuming a alcoholic beverage.
Saw live sex show at teh Red Light District. THat was........different...bizar...hilarious.
Saw show at Moulin Rouge. Definetly worth it.
Language confused with 3 languages in two weeks.
Conference in Seattle.
End trip with strippers. |
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[Oct. 13th, 2009|11:06 pm] |
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In Amsterdam having a blast. Good food, good company. Playing with the dogs and hooking up with old friends. Have spent lots of time walking thru the city and am trying to have my travel compagnon try out all sorts of beer. |
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| leaving on an airplane |
[Oct. 1st, 2009|08:04 am] |
Cleaned the house. All that is lef tis to pack the stuff I have set aside.
Ima leaving today for my three week trip to Europe. Tommorow by this time I am with my mom!
The only things really planned this time is a few visits with family and one with two friends from long time ago. I have not seen them in 15 years I think. It will be interesting to hook up and see what has happened to them.
R is arriving the 9th in Amsterdam. We will be there for about 10 days and then Paris!!
I am excited!
ee yall when I getback! |
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| because I am gone for a month |
[Sep. 14th, 2009|10:23 am] |
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Rent 745$ for Oct 1st-31st, including Hydro, Shaw Cable & Internet and local phone. Rates for 1-2 weeks negotiable.
Contact me! |
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| Europe here we come |
[Jul. 22nd, 2009|08:21 am] |
So a while ago a friend and I decided to go to Europe for a womens conference. The conference got cancelled and I thougth we would not be going. Well......... I was but I did not think she would still be interested in going.
Did I make an mistake in that. SHe was still interested and yesterday our tickets got finalized!!
I will be heading out to the Netherlands on Oct 1 and stay with my mum for the first week. I get to see where mum has moved to, hook up with my family, sisters and brother, eat good indonesian food, see some old friends and go to my old hang outs.
Then on the 8th or 9th, my friend arrives in Amsterdam and we will be staying at the houseboat while we are there. THis is the first time she is going to be there so I will be playing tourguide.
THe last leg of the trip we wil be going to Paris for a few days before we fly home.
I am sooo freakig excited this is going to happen.
Oh........ we will be sorta back on Oct 22 and then we will head out to WW in Seattle on the 23rd. How hardcore are we!! |
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| piercing and stuff |
[Jul. 20th, 2009|09:37 am] |
Wow,
It has been crazy bissy in my life the last few weeks.
I spent a weekend in Athabasca ( AB) for Primal Pain a few weeks ago. The weekend was filled with body based rituals. I co-facilitated 2 sweatlodges, 2 suspensions and an energy pull.
Lot of catching up with old friends and making new ones. So many gifts from ppl.
A weekend like that is a bit taxing on the body and mind. So many different energies, so much stuff coming up for people. IT is hard to describe but it was amazing
When I came back I went back to work the next days. Kinda weird to go from the beauty and quiet of this nature camp to the DTES. So ofcourse I crashed a week later ( hullo delayed response)
These days I am pretty much working every day. Tues to Sat in the DTES as an Outreach Worker. Sundays and Mondays I am piercing for Elwoods Bodymodification out of our new location.
We just started here ( Zoho's hair and lockshop, 1708 East 4th) and have a drop in on Sun and Mon and the rest of the time it is by appointment so I can facilitate to peoples scedule and my own.
If you are interested contact me. YOu can call me if you have my number, use my pvt email or email me at louise@elwoodsbodymod.com
Oh and I almost forgot......... I turned 40 this last week. Celebrated it with T. SHe took me to a fancy restaurant.Celbrated with R by making her food Going to celebrate again with T, R and M with a cheese and whine party at my place and the last celebration will be a suspension with a select few ppl.
K back to the bisssiness again.
Future plans...... Pride ( I am actually taking that day off), Victoria Pull and..... |
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| realization |
[Jun. 22nd, 2009|09:09 am] |
It just dawned on me on Saturday that my whole working live evolves around needles.
If I am not handing them out as part of my "regular" job I am sticking them in people for beautifying or spiritual reasons.
On Sundays and Mondays ( which are my regular dates off from the "regular job") I am piercing in a hairslaon just off the Drive. Wanna hangout or get something done?? Come on by, I am ussualy there from noon till 5-6 pm.
This weekend is Primal Pain in Edmonton. I am looking forward to another weekend full of rituals, ceremonies and good times with friends.
Now if only I had soem more time! |
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| 6.51 am on a Saturday morning |
[Jun. 20th, 2009|07:32 am] |
Dear car owner.
Could you please turn off the freaking alarm on your car?? It has been going for 15 minutes now. It disturbed my sleep to the point that I had to get up.
If you don*t check what is going on with your car and turn it off why have one.... ASSHOLE |
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| bissy, bissy, bissy |
[Jun. 12th, 2009|09:29 am] |
Today is my last day of work and I am looking forward to it.
The last few months have been ridicilously bissy.
I was at Mayhem and had friends staying over at my place. It was a blast! On the Sunday of Mayhem we did a hookpull. GOt to pierce a lot of people for that. Sure was good to pierce for a womens only ritual.
Elwood and I opened up a new location for Elwoods Bodymod off the Drive ( In Zoho lock shop 1704 E 4th, just off the Drive) SO far I am there on Sundays and Mondays from 12 to 6 pm. We both do the rest of the week by appointment only.
This means that IN the past few weeks I have been working 5 days a week at one job and then I spent 2 days a week in the shop. NO days off for me.
But this week it is different. This week I somehow have Saturday of. I am going to spent it by turnng off my cell phone and estrellada and I are going to playland. I am gonna go in every freakin ride!!
Wonder if she will go along to do them all.
In a few weeks I am of fto Edmonton again. Primal Pain is happening. |
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| random stuff you don*t realy wanna know |
[Apr. 13th, 2009|10:42 pm] |
- My girlfriend wants to be fucked by Michelle Obama and I can watch!! Yay meeeeeeeeeee.
She also has a fetish for sticking her fingers in my nose
- I am bad at being sick/ unhealthy. I had to go home from work and miss a day and it is just plain old weird
- I am going to be piercing for a ritual at the leatherdyke conference here in Vancouver. Friends from Edmonton are coming over
- My mom rocks. She always does but this time even more as she is helping me get my car back on the road. Freedom, freedom
- I am working lots (sometimes 6 days a week) but I like what I am doing |
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| Luper |
[Feb. 20th, 2009|11:02 am] |
This years Lupercalia in Edmonton was more intense than the previous years. It has actually taken me all these days to physically recoup from Luper. My brain is still filled with clips from the last weekend. It was again an awesome weekend were I got to hook up with old friends and make new ones.
If I thought it was cold the previous years, this one surely beat it. I now know what - 25 celsius feels like. It is no fun to step out the hotel for a smoke in that temperature!
I know, you are all waiting to hear what really happened. Well ... here it goes.
After being picked up by our usual ride form the airport ( thanks Don) and checking in the hotel, we got the chance to relax a little before the madness began.
While smoking outside I got to see friends coming in and there was lots of greeting.
Elwood, Rowan and I were asked to do a hook suspension at the Friday evening event so we got ready for that. Arrangements had been made so that we were physically and mentally safe. Food was in the room and friends were around to support us with the prep and piercing part before the suspension. Don and Chrissy did an awesome job making sure we were pierced and roped up safely. Satina, Dale and Denika had ensured that there was fuel for our body.
I know a lot of people that saw us do this pull thought it was a performance. I am sorry to say......... it was not. For Elwood, Rowan and I this was a ritual. We went into it with intend and got a chance to have some closure and new beginnings. We were doing this for ourselves, you got the change to witness it.
The pull itself was pretty intens for me. I am used to doing hook pulls but not used to pulling someone of the ground. Rowan and Elwood had helped me through my initial fear of not being able to do this. I was so honoured to part take in this pull with them. Once we got going....... we went. I lost sense of time and space. All there was was the three of us doing this. I have no memorie of who was there or what exactly happened. All I know is that we were there and reacted instinctively to each other. The only thing planned was the piercing and the music. All that happened while the music played was us, combining energies.
I can't really discribe how I felt after the pull. I was overwhelmed, tired and energized at the same time. We were whisked of to our room and taking care of by the people we wanted around us at that time. We were fed, watered and nursed if needed.
A big thank you to all of you who where there afterwards to ensure I did not do anything I was absolutley not capable of.
The effect of the pull was present throughout the whole weeknd. I could feel my energy going up and down the rest of the weekend. It even intruded my dreams.
On Saturday we had our won private room service bring us coffee and yummies. I did not attend the first workshop as I really could not make it out of bed. The workshop I did go to was Laura A's. Laura is not only an established writer ( I think most of you will know her for the Market Place series) she is also smart and funny as hell as a presenter.Conclusion from her workshop has defenitly got to be.. Wanna make money in the Edmonton area?? Open up a Kinky Farm and make sure you have dogs.
During lunch break I got my boots blacked by an up and coming Vancouver bootblack. I know........ life is so hard when you have a girl on her knees doing your boots so you look representable for your own presentation. Estrellada fed me pasta and we got the chance to chill a little.
Later on in the pm it was time for Rowan and I to do our presentation.
Usually I do hands on presentations but this time we decided to do it a bit different. Rowan actually kept all her clothes on ( what she wore was still distracting me at times though) and we did a talking head workshop. If you were in the workshop and want to give me feedback or ideas so we can improve it, please do!!
Lupercalia takes their presenters for dinner every year on Saturday evening. I got to take Mistress Mary as my date this year and we were served a lovely buffet. To my felllow table mates......sorry I did not talk that much. I was really hungry!
And then the paly party on Saturday!!
OMFG......... that was hot and not in a Paris Hilton way! There was a bunch of dykes present this Lupercalia so we got to do the dyke thing. You know, where everyone female is close to the scene going on and adding to the scene somehow. You start with two of them playing and pretty soon there is a soccer team of women weighing in on the scene. One of the female Dms checked to see if it was ok that all these people were adding themselves to the scene and I quickly explained that this is how we do it.
After the bootblack scene Mistress Mary and I got to Top Rowan and estreladda. YUMMIE.
It was a pretty intense scene which, due to some restrictions, had to be taken to the hotel room afterwards.
Sunday morning was the traditional brunch. Local community memebers get recognized for all that they have done for their community, announcements are being made and the presenters get a present as well. I did a happy dance on the seat when I found out that this year the present was not made out of stone! Lesson learned, be carefull when you sit at the same table with Fifth Angel and Elwood. Things will fly!
I took the pm to relax a little in the room and got a massage. We than had an early dinner in the pub with friends and were off to the presenters Q&A. Durig the last part of the Q&A things got a bit emotional for me and I cried a little when Elwood answered the final question to him. When it came to me answering the question I was all ADD and could not even really answer.
Sunday evening another play party. This time Mistress Mary was pierced by Elwood for a hookpull that Rowan and I were going to do. Another intense scene with a new first time ever and my body doing things I did not think it could do.
Monday morning I woke up, estreladda called to see if she could jump in bed with me. I ain*t gonna say no to that!! A little later Mistress Mary comes by to say goodbye, we undress her and get her into the bed, Rowna wakes up, comes to the living room and got undressed and dragged in bed as well.Lucky me, waking up on Monday and three naked women in my bed before coffee!!
We did invite Elwood to get naked and in as well but he opted out.
Eventually all this awesomeness has to end. We had to say our goodbyes to our friends throughout monday morning and get on the plane home.
I have been tired, sore and satisfied all week. It has been weird to be back at work and all that. Next year I get to be a attendee for a change!!
Thanks to all that made it another special Lupercalia.
So tell me, how was your Luper weekend? |
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| back from Luper |
[Feb. 17th, 2009|06:27 pm] |
- carpet burn on my knees
- rope burn in my neck
- holes in my chest
- body hurting all over
More to follow when I got more time and am more coherent. |
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| finally |
[Jan. 31st, 2009|11:24 am] |
I have been home for a few days now and finally have the time to update the blog.
Things have been bussy in the last few weeks and this is the first time I have two days off in a row.
Today I am going tubing with a bunch and tonight hanging out with E and T.
SO I went to SF for the INtensive. WHen they said Intensive... they meant INTENSIVE!!
All the days were from 10 am and did not stop until at least 6 pm. A whole bunch of information got thrown at us. History, techniques, breathing, marking, anatomy...... everything you might face when piercing. How the indsutry works. and at times doesn*t work.
The five days of the course have been pretty much going to school, soaking up the information, going back to the place I stayed, put the info in its place and crash!!
The instructors at the school are great. They really know there shit, foudn a good way to share it and have an collective experience of years of being a piercer and 10000"s of piercing.
Sunday was graduation day. We now had to pierce people for real. I got a few piercings under my belt, got tipped and felt more confident as the day went along. B the time I did the last piercing I was totally comfortable, joking and poking!
After all teh clients had left we did the ritual. A few of us, including me, got pierced by the instructors. Cleo and Fakir led the ritual. Cleo casted a circle, there was drumming, energies being built, all were focussed on the ritual.
I had decided to get my outer labia pierced tandem ( heck they already had my nipples done tandem and I liked the rush from that one) IT took me a few days to make that decision but Saturday night i had a dream and SUnday I woke up going.... I really need to do this for me.
Before we got pierced Cleo had us speak out our name and say what we were gonna get pierced and why. For me it is a present ot me as I will be 15 years clean soon. It is also a closure of some past stuff and letting go of some " stone" in me. Boy did I let go!!
I cried, but not from pain or sadness. I cried cus I was relieved. I could feel something go and afterwards I felt like I was walking taller!
After all the school and ritual stuff was done a classmate to me for a ride in the Hummer. Boy are those things big. SHe took me to the Fishermans Wharf and we had dinner there. That was an awesoem way to end course.
On monday I decided to play touris and got myself ot the port and piers. Hung around, bought a bunch of choclate for Tillie and got on those tram thingies they haev there. Ended up in the Castro and hung out there with this gay guy I met on the tram.
Left for home after that.
Tillies roommate came and picked me up from the airport adn brought me to their house.
ANd on Tuesday I became a full fledged employee of the City.
THe rest of the week has been bissy with working and catching up on stuff. I am back home but I have no illusion of things calming down now.
Soon I will be piercing for Elwoods Body Mod. I have a job as an outreach worker. Luper is in 2 weeks and ther are lots more goodies waiting for me!!
Live is gooooood!! Lemme knwo how yours is |
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| back |
[Jan. 27th, 2009|09:01 am] |
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Spent teh week in SF for the Fakir Intensive. Will write more later. FOr now, I ma back. |
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| finally |
[Jan. 20th, 2009|08:36 am] |
Well it has been a crazy two weeks. I was constantly bissy. If not with work, then with apprenticing, volunteering or studying. That trip has now come to some sort of an end.
Today I am leaving for my course at Fakirs Intensives in San Francisco. NOt neccesarily a break form the madnees but a different pace. I ahevv been waiting for this oppurtunity for a few months and am excited that it is finally here.
I need to pack, I need to clean my house, I need to do laundry. I ma so not ready to leave yet. Usaully I have this all done a day or two before I leave but.... I have been to bissy.
One week away from Vancouver. Away from work and craziness. Away from short nights, good sex and coffee in bed on those rare days I get to not start at a freakishly early hour. A week of no phone and limited internet. A week to focus on something I really want.
E and R have set me up with a few of their friends so my cost are not extremely high. I will learn from the best in the industry. I will get to know people that are important to two of my closest friends. I will see a city I have never been to before. I will get back with a jumpstart to my new other carreer.
Bu bye....... seeya next week |
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| hmmmmmmmm |
[Jan. 16th, 2009|07:48 am] |
I just realized that for the first time in a long time I don*t have to stroll teh employment sites to see if there is a job that interests me.
Yey meeee |
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| winter in the Netherlands ( when it gets cold enough) |
[Jan. 15th, 2009|08:38 am] |
Sometimes when people ask me if I miss my home country and what it is I miss I have a hrd time explaining it.
Last week..... this is what I missed..literally and figuratively.
As a kid I would spent all my free time in the winter going to places like this and was gone for hours
( keeping fingers crossed that the pic will show)
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| breather |
[Jan. 14th, 2009|09:44 am] |
Ok. I still don*t know what is going on with that new job ad it is kinda annoying me. I understand that they are bissy and not all depends on that department and we are dealing with the city as well but......... * sigh*....It feels like I can*t make any commitment ot either apprenticing or the OSC. Not to mention the fact that next week I will be spending almost all my time in SF at the Fakir Intensive.
Had I known that they woudl not call me re: training, I would have OSCed today. Now I left an message with E that I can come in today to do some work for him.
I ahev been working and studying in teh past 9 days and set my head to not having any real free time till sunday at the earliest. I can*t just sit and do nothing now cus my head is not there!!
Weird to feel uneasy about an unexpected breather |
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| bisssssyyyy |
[Jan. 12th, 2009|09:40 am] |
It has been a bissy few weeks.
I started working and did full days over the holiday break. THese days I do start at 2 pm and only work to 6 pm. Before that I try to get thru the piercing manual and learn, deal with some grown up stuff like bills, chores and all that. I also try to spend some time with T on the weekends.
Regardless of whether I am working that day or not, I often get up early and structure my day a bit.
I realized yesterday that I had started working on Monday, am still booked for two days at the OSC, might start training with the new job somewhere this week ( otherwise I am quiet sure I can work the OSC), have to apprentice in the weekend, get ready for the course in SF and also said I would be at the show to help DM.
I like being this bissy. It feels like I am finally heading where I wanted to go since August and maybe even further. My close friends and T are supportive and encouraging my actions. They don*t claim time, are happy to hear from me or see me and provide me with much needed relaxation and distraction.
I have to keep a few minor health things in mind while I am this bissy. I need to try to get enough rest and get to bed in time. I need to make sure I eat. I need to take my pills before bed. I need to curtail my bad habits. I need one day this week that has nothing to do with work but has to do with me.
On other parts. Hanging out and spending time with T is fun. Hot sex, good food, no pressure and when I felt I had to bring something up that might potentially have been a bit, shall we say, uncomfortable, she turned out to have the same view point I had.
I had a long talk with a very good freind of mine. I have seen her in the last month but life has been hectic for both of us and we did not get to spent a lot of one on one time with eachother or do any of the other things we have become to do with eachother. I have missed that. Catching up was great and made me realize some really good things about our friendship. |
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